I have a tendency to make mountains out of molehills. What’s worse—I have an equally hideous tendency not to know the difference between them. I’m ashamed to admit it, but when something unexpected happens, I fly into panic mode. I begin making plans, contingency plans, and backup contingency plans on how to handle the situation. At night, I toss and turn, worrying about things that might go wrong. Needless to say, my actions aren’t bringing me any closer to my goal of becoming A PERSON OF PEACE.
Recently, as I was praying, I felt God bringing up this glaring flaw in my personality. At first, I tried defending myself to God. After that, I tried explaining myself to God. When that didn’t work, I tried explaining AND defending myself to God. When it was obvious by the conviction in my spirit that God wasn’t impressed, I finally shushed up, sat silently, and let God speak.
Deep down in my spirit, I began to see a vision. It wasn’t a weird, mystical thing—just a picture imprinted on my mind as I sat with my eyes closed. In the vision, I saw myself shoving against a mighty mountain made out of solid rock. I shoved, pushed, tugged, and sweat. I nearly broke my back.
The vision shifted, and I saw myself picking up a rock. As I carried it, I began running back-and-forth. I kept crossing the same stretch of ground over-and-over.
Again, the vision shifted. I saw God handing me a tiny pebble. I looked at the pebble, walked two steps, and placed it on the ground where He told me to put it.
After the vision stopped playing in my mind, I scratched my head and said, “What on earth did that mean?”
Down deep in my spirit, I felt God smile. As I sat in an attitude of prayer, I felt Him explain that the first part of the vision represented the problems I had no control over. Simply put, the mountain was things I could not change. In the vision, I was trying to push the mountain away, but I was getting nowhere. I was also putting stress on my body. Down in my spirit, I felt God say that I needed to stop fighting against the mountain and simply pray over it. God said that He was the Mountain Mover. He also said that I needed to stop worrying that the mountain was in my life.
After that, I felt God explain the second part of the vision. In the vision, I was carrying a rock back-and-forth. God said that many times I worried about things that didn’t matter. I was trying to stomp out fires that did not exist. I was carrying problems here-and-there in a futile effort to solve them. He said that I needed to ignore “non-event problems.” I needed to let them take care of themselves. I needed to stop fretting. All I was doing was wearing myself out, and I was getting nowhere.
As I digested God’s words, I felt Him show me the third part of the vision again. In this part, God handed me a tiny pebble, I walked a little ways, and I placed it on the ground. I felt God explain that when I needed to address a problem, the problem would not overwhelm me. I would be able to carry it easily to its proper place. In other words, God would give me the wisdom to know what to do, and it wouldn’t be too hard for me to handle.
Sitting silently, I felt God telling me that I was burnt out, frazzled, and afraid because I was trying to move mountains He needed to take care of, and I was running back-and-forth fiddling with non-events. He said that when I walked through the day in communication with Him, He would show me which problems I needed to address, and He would tell me how to take care of them.
As I sat there, it was as if a light bulb turned on in my brain. I didn’t have the strength to move mountains. I didn’t have the stamina to keep running back-and-forth. But I could put one tiny pebble where God wanted it put.
Friends, I WANT to be a person of peace. I WANT to stop allowing worry to run my life. I know that I’m going to need practice, but hopefully, as I keep trying, I will be able to start classifying my problems as “God-mountains,” “non-events,” and “movable-pebbles.” Hopefully, I will be able to start putting things into perspective and stop making mountains out of molehills. If I do, I know that I will experience the peace that God wants me to have.