When I was a child, I wanted to be a writer. I also wanted to be a missionary. I dreamed about reaching the nations with the good news that God loves us. When I was in high school and college, my missionary dreams continued to grow. I read every mission’s report I could find—I KNEW God was calling me to service. As I prayed, I felt sure God was telling me that someday I’d be traveling the globe sharing His peace and love. I was certain the promises I’d heard God whispering to my heart were going to come true.
Then I became ill.
Quarantine was a difficult time for me. Not only because of the physical pain, but also because it made me doubt the things I’d heard in prayer. I felt sure that God had said He was going to send me to the nations, but how could I travel the globe when I couldn’t even enter a grocery store? I began to doubt God’s voice, and as disappointment crept into my soul, I began to doubt God’s existence.
As my quarantine stretched on, I gradually put away my disillusionment and began reestablishing my relationship with God. I reexamined my faith and decided that despite heartache and pain, God is real, God is good, God is intimately interested in every moment of my life, Jesus must be kept in the center of my faith, and God is trustworthy in spite of tragedy. With my faith restored, I began learning how to give my dreams into God’s keeping. One by one, I relinquished my desires into His care.
Time passed. The years came and went.
My life felt like it was at a standstill, but curiously, I was no longer resentful of that fact. I had stopped struggling, and instead, I was basking in the Lord’s peace. I figured that God had a good plan for my life, and even though I didn’t understand what it was, I knew He would bring it forth in His good timing. Ceasing to struggle was the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but it was also the best and most fulfilling thing I’ve done. There’s something incredibly beautiful about peace. There’s something wonderful about trust.
More years came and went.
I began writing The Time Counselor Chronicles, and eventually, I received a contract from Prism Book Group for Time Tsunami, the first book in the series. Prism recommended that I start a blog, but the thought terrified me. After all, what did I have to blog about? What could I possibly say? Would anyone even read what I wrote? Would I make an idiot of myself? Could I even do it?
As I pondered the swirling questions, once again, I felt God’s peace surrounding me. It was almost as if I could feel Him smile. Feeling totally out of my depth, I decided to start even though I had no idea what I was doing. I named my blog dragonflydanele after the dragonfly incident that let me know God loved me—an incident described on my blog’s welcome page. After prayer, I decided to use my blog as a platform to tell people that God loved them. I wanted my readers to know that even though bad things happen, God is still real, life is still good, and the future is still bright. I wanted to bring hope.
When I started blogging, I wasn’t sure that anyone would read what I had written, but chronicling the lessons I’d learned during quarantine felt right. Giving praise to God for His never-ending love brought me a sense of peace. As the months passed, something amazing began happening. People began sharing my posts with their friends, and their friends shared my posts with their friends. WordPress has a feature that tells you how many people view your articles, and I was amazed to see the number growing. Although readers’ identities are kept secret, WordPress has a feature that tells you what countries your readers are from. I was astonished when I realized that my articles were being read in places other than the United States. Every time I saw a new country listed, I would squeal and tell my family. It simply amazed me.
As more time passed, my amazement turned into reverent awe as I remembered God’s promise to send me to the nations. My old dreams of spreading God’s love around the globe were coming to pass in a way I hadn’t expected. I thought I would be a missionary—God planned on making me a blogger, and through my computer, I’m reaching more people than I ever could’ve imagined. Each time I read my WordPress statistics and see the map of the nations where my articles are being read, I feel a sense of wonder. All I can say is that God is AWESOME!
Friends, hold onto your God-given dreams. And if your dreams seem to be delaying, don’t despair. God has a way of making things happen in His own timing and in His own way. God’s promises ALWAYS hold true. Even if you can’t see how it can happen, God can make your impossible dreams a reality.
LIST OF NATIONS WHERE dragonflydanele IS BEING READ:
Hong Kong SAR China
Trinidad & Tobago
United Arab Emirates
US Virgin Islands
“Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, do not despair, for these things will surely come to pass. Just be patient! They will not be overdue a single day!” Habakkuk 2:3b
“What a God He is! How perfect in every way! All His promises hold true!” Psalm 18:30a